at the feet of untamed things

[amistillenough]

Barnaby is restless. At first, he thought it was maybe boredom, just a moment of not being able to focus on anything, but no. He can feel an itch to do something, anything, that has him moving.

He'd tried playing music, which didn't really get him anywhere. It felt good for a few minutes, but then it only seemed to build up the restlessness even more. So he put down his violin and traded it for pacing the length of the livingroom with a book in hand.

It also doesn't really help, but doing two things at once makes things settle a tiny bit more. He needs to do something though, something that makes him move and keeps his attention.

Putting down the book, he digs up some of the rope they keep around, running his fingers over it before he starts to tie and untie it until he finds himself doing a series of ties on himself. It's at least posing enough of a challenge to keep him occupied, which is all he wanted.

The thought of going to get Jeremy had crossed his mind, as had going to go talk to Birch to see if they would be a good distraction, but this would do for now. He can pivot to something else when it stops working.

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[kinginred]

"Which is part of why I love you so much." He smiles up at Barnaby, truly feeling so in love and at peace.

[amistillenough]

He purrs even more, then nuzzles into his love's neck. "You know," he says after a few moments. "This is really good. Us, I mean. I already knew it, but sometimes it hits me. You and I are really good like this. I never really thought I'd have that with someone."

[kinginred]

"I never thought I'd have it either. I agree, we are really good."

[amistillenough]

He lifts his head so he can kiss him softly, then lets it turn into something deeper. Sharing things like this always feels wonderful, and really understanding that yes, this is what they have made together and is good, is something he revels in.

"I'm glad I get to share a life with you," he says when they part. "And kisses. I'm really glad for those."

[kinginred]

As they kiss he lets his fingers move over his love's skin.

"I am very glad for both too. Sharing kisses with you is the best."

[amistillenough]

He wriggles and then snuggles down into him again. This kind of happiness felt impossible for so long and now it's something he has at his fingertips. How strange and wonderful life can be.

"You make a lot of things the best," he says with a giggle. "Including me. You make me better than I was before I knew you.".

[kinginred]

"You also make me better," he says and nuzzles at his boyfriend.

[amistillenough]

He nuzzles and kisses him in return, sometimes mixing in the touch of his tongue to his lips or the tip of his nose. There are more wriggles, and this time he does so enough that he tips them onto their sides, which only makes him drape his arm and leg over his love and let out another laugh.

"I promise that I can stay still," he says, smiling widely. "At least I think I can."

[kinginred]

He laughs with his love. With another little laugh, he tips Barnaby onto his back and settles himself on top of him with a flap of wings. "Maybe," he says and props himself up to gently press his lover's shoulders down, "someone needs to help."

[amistillenough]

He can't help but giggle again, then proceed to wriggle beneath his love. "Help is good," he says, then squirms one more time. "But I'll take pretty much anything you want to give me, honestly. Help. You to lay on top of. I'm happy as long as it's you."

[kinginred]

"That seems pretty easy for me to give." He bends down to give his love a kiss.

[amistillenough]

He makes a pleased sound into the kiss, then arches up into him a little. "You give me so many you-related things," he says, sounding quite pleased by this fact. "It's great, actually."

He starts up a little rocking from side to side instead of trying to actually get up. Maybe he's still a little restless, but it's a much more enjoyable, excited kind now. He is here, with the man he loves in the safest place he could be. That's worth being excited over.

[kinginred]

Giggling, he scatters kisses over his love's face. "Me related things are things I have in great supply."

[amistillenough]

He can't stop his own giggles and squirming. "There is so much you," he says, wrapping his arms and legs around him. "Which is great news for me. Having so much of you is the best thing I could hope for."

[kinginred]

"I'm glad." He gives his love a few more kisses. "I'm not sure what to do with that knowledge, but I'm glad. Being loved by you is the best thing I could hope for."

[amistillenough]

He tugs him close for a slower kiss, then touches their noses together. "I guess it's good that we've got plenty of time for you to figure that out then."

[kinginred]

"It is. Lots of time for me to accept that I deserve this nice thing." He leans up to touch their noses together.

[amistillenough]

He giggles, then tilts his head to kiss him on the nose. "We both get to have that," he says. "So many nice things."

Running his hands over his love's sides, he then reaches up to gently brush over his wings, enjoying the feeling of them under his hands. "Sometimes I wonder if you'll ever be able to have those outside of here somehow. I don't know how exactly, but I do."

[kinginred]

"It is a little odd not having them outside of here. I don't know how that would happen, but if it does I'm glad you'll enjoy them," he says and kisses his cheek.

[amistillenough]

He turns his head to kiss him, his hand coming to rest loosely against his neck. "I love every part of you," he says, touching their noses together. "Every part of you in here, and every part anywhere else. Maybe you and I will be able to be different out there one day, but maybe not. At least I get to be with you either way. That's the important part."

[kinginred]

"That is the important part," he says. He nuzzles his love and settles into a loving kiss.

[amistillenough]

He smiles into it, his arms and legs coming to hold his love close again. Being able to just share closeness like this is something he's never going to get tired of. Showing his love freely and whenever he wants is a beautiful thing.

When one kiss ends, he lets another start, allowing it to bloom between them as he holds his beloved.

[kinginred]

He is very happy to let the kisses stretch out and blend into what they hold between them. Their life and dedication to each other.

[amistillenough]

He smiles again as one of their kisses comes to an end, then nudges their noses together. "We should go walking at some point," he says. "Maybe go somewhere that will let us get a good view of the stars."

[kinginred]

"Here or out there?" The stars he can make here are vibrantly more than their Earthly sky.