at the feet of untamed things

[amistillenough]

Barnaby is restless. At first, he thought it was maybe boredom, just a moment of not being able to focus on anything, but no. He can feel an itch to do something, anything, that has him moving.

He'd tried playing music, which didn't really get him anywhere. It felt good for a few minutes, but then it only seemed to build up the restlessness even more. So he put down his violin and traded it for pacing the length of the livingroom with a book in hand.

It also doesn't really help, but doing two things at once makes things settle a tiny bit more. He needs to do something though, something that makes him move and keeps his attention.

Putting down the book, he digs up some of the rope they keep around, running his fingers over it before he starts to tie and untie it until he finds himself doing a series of ties on himself. It's at least posing enough of a challenge to keep him occupied, which is all he wanted.

The thought of going to get Jeremy had crossed his mind, as had going to go talk to Birch to see if they would be a good distraction, but this would do for now. He can pivot to something else when it stops working.

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[amistillenough]

He nods, then wriggles again and holds him a little more tightly. "That's true," he says, "I still feel a little bit restless, but being here with you makes it so much easier. I think I need to start going on more walks, though." Then he nuzzles into his love, rocking them both just a little. "Or I can keep tying you up I guess. That's also an option."

[kinginred]

"You can do both, but maybe not at the same time. Difficult to tie knots while walking," he says with a grin.

[amistillenough]

He considers that for a moment. "I think it would depend on the knots and where we were walking. I could probably manage it with some planning. I bet if we did it on the roof I could make it work since it's pretty much flat up there."

[kinginred]

"We can practice that and then find out if that would be something Birch and Emery would enjoy watching," he says with a little grin.

[amistillenough]

He nods, "Yeah we can definitely do that. I feel like we should do something more interesting than just walking around though. Don't ask me what, I'm not sure I could dance and tie you up at the same time or anything like that, but I could try."

[kinginred]

"I will be happy to let you practice on me until you find something you're satisfied with."

[amistillenough]

He wriggles again, not quite ending on top of his love this time. "Thank you," he says brightly, nuzzling into his neck again.

"I promise I'll try and make it fun for you."

[kinginred]

"Oh it will be, because it is you." He tips back a little. "Did you want to lay on top of me?"

[amistillenough]

He makes a pleased sound, then nods. "Yes, please. You are a good place to be on."

Once he settles on top of him, he sighs, a soft purr starting up. Kissing Jeremy's jaw, he lets his eyes close as he further relaxes. Maybe he should have just made his boyfriend into a bed instead of trying everything else, he feels so much more relaxed now.

[kinginred]

He runs his fingers over his boyfriend's sides. "Sometimes we have to try the wrong things so we know when they are right."

[amistillenough]

He makes an agreeable sound and then touches his teeth to his skin. It feels good to be tucked away in the safety of Jeremy's mind. It's comforting in a way nothing else has ever been and being able to touch his love in this particular way is something he'll never get sick of.

"I love you," he murmurs into his skin. "You're amazing, and I love every part of you."

[kinginred]

"I love you too," he says. "I'd try to argue that you might learn something you don't care for, but you've been able to see more of me than anyone else has."

[amistillenough]

"And I love you anyway," he says with a smile. "I've known a lot of people and you're still my very favorite one. I don't want to be anywhere but with you." He kisses his cheek, then his lips.

[kinginred]

"Which is part of why I love you so much." He smiles up at Barnaby, truly feeling so in love and at peace.

[amistillenough]

He purrs even more, then nuzzles into his love's neck. "You know," he says after a few moments. "This is really good. Us, I mean. I already knew it, but sometimes it hits me. You and I are really good like this. I never really thought I'd have that with someone."

[kinginred]

"I never thought I'd have it either. I agree, we are really good."

[amistillenough]

He lifts his head so he can kiss him softly, then lets it turn into something deeper. Sharing things like this always feels wonderful, and really understanding that yes, this is what they have made together and is good, is something he revels in.

"I'm glad I get to share a life with you," he says when they part. "And kisses. I'm really glad for those."

[kinginred]

As they kiss he lets his fingers move over his love's skin.

"I am very glad for both too. Sharing kisses with you is the best."

[amistillenough]

He wriggles and then snuggles down into him again. This kind of happiness felt impossible for so long and now it's something he has at his fingertips. How strange and wonderful life can be.

"You make a lot of things the best," he says with a giggle. "Including me. You make me better than I was before I knew you.".

[kinginred]

"You also make me better," he says and nuzzles at his boyfriend.

[amistillenough]

He nuzzles and kisses him in return, sometimes mixing in the touch of his tongue to his lips or the tip of his nose. There are more wriggles, and this time he does so enough that he tips them onto their sides, which only makes him drape his arm and leg over his love and let out another laugh.

"I promise that I can stay still," he says, smiling widely. "At least I think I can."

[kinginred]

He laughs with his love. With another little laugh, he tips Barnaby onto his back and settles himself on top of him with a flap of wings. "Maybe," he says and props himself up to gently press his lover's shoulders down, "someone needs to help."

[amistillenough]

He can't help but giggle again, then proceed to wriggle beneath his love. "Help is good," he says, then squirms one more time. "But I'll take pretty much anything you want to give me, honestly. Help. You to lay on top of. I'm happy as long as it's you."

[kinginred]

"That seems pretty easy for me to give." He bends down to give his love a kiss.

[amistillenough]

He makes a pleased sound into the kiss, then arches up into him a little. "You give me so many you-related things," he says, sounding quite pleased by this fact. "It's great, actually."

He starts up a little rocking from side to side instead of trying to actually get up. Maybe he's still a little restless, but it's a much more enjoyable, excited kind now. He is here, with the man he loves in the safest place he could be. That's worth being excited over.